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Helena-Reet: What has just happened to me?

September 16, 2021

NordenBladet – Since the beginning of this week I have been exhausted and unwell.. It just sucks to be ill! I like to be active and it gets on my nerves when time goes by and I am not able to spend it purposefully and efficiently. But you cannot ignore health matters (read: also fatigue) though that’s what I have tried.

On Tuesday when I was taking children to school, I got a feeling of constraint and squeezing in my chest (more or less a pre-myocardial infarction feeling, not that I know the feeling… but anyway…). I stopped the car and called Allan. I told him I felt weird, that it was difficult to breathe and there was a slight wave of panic taking over. After driving the children to school I was about to visit my oral hygiene specialist Marina Sõõru at Unimed Clinic. I am scared of dentists as well as of new strange roads (trajectories that I have not driven before, or places where the parking is not my usual parking routine, these make me stressed and anxious). We had a video call and seeing him calmed me down. He always has the effect of boosting the feelings of safety and serenity. Love can actually cure!!! ❤ Allan to me is just like a sedative pill – he is sizable, strong and smart – in his arms I am safe, his voice is soothing, he always knows what would be best in each situation, he has hands of gold and a sharp mind + he is super calm and concrete, which in my case is a must have!

Luckily I had scheduled the time with no hurry and managed to park the car normally and made it on time. Oral care cost 70 euros (it included mechanical cleaning of teeth, removal of calculus and also pearl wash). This done, I went to Järve Selver. I, a devoted housewife, found there from Apollo bookstore two really cool and inspiring cookbooks – Lia Virkus’s “Minu parimad” (31.95) and Ragne Värk’s “Koogid – lihtsad ja küpsetamata” (21.90). I thumbed them through in the store and thought to myself that I cannot wait until I can try all these fine recipes at home when cooking for my family! Indeed, both contain lots of exciting and inviting recipes! Yummm***

After that I drove back home to prepare dinner. I made some calming chamomile tea and fresh sweet sour cream lettuce salad, some spicy potato porridge and breaded Viennese schnitzel with cheese and then headed to a beauty salon at Saku centre to have my lashes and nails done. Yet in the salon I once again started feeling unwell – only with great effort could I endure the time of my beauty procedures and once back at home I went straight to bed. I had chest pain from 2 p.m. until 8 p.m. and I also had a temperature of 37.1 degrees Celsius. I still haven’t figured out what it was. May a panic attack last that long? What had happened to me? I do not know. Also the next day the weakness persisted, only today evening I started feeling better. I had no symptoms of Covid-19, and also I have received two shots of AstraZeneca corona vaccine.

Allan brought me flowers again… for no special reason. It makes me so happy! To my mind, when men show regard for their woman and are attentive, this is super masculine and nice! Extra sweet! I was so happy! I do not know what it is, perhaps I am just head over heels in love or perhaps he just is the world’s coolest man! We are such a perfect match – we have the same visions, opinions, feelings, tastes, dreams, reality etc… He is masculine, I am feminine, he is dominant, I find a strong and leading male attractive. Today I am feeling a bit better and immediately I sprang into action! I cleaned and sorted stuff at home, created news content for NordenBladet, cooked a great supper (curry chicken, sparkling healthy fresh sweet pepper and pesto salad, and along with it some couscous). In the evening we did some gardening work together.

Garden is great! Nature is mighty! Gardening work is cool! We both like to be in nature and we like progress. It is nice to watch getting things done with our own hands! We cut a section of the spruce hedge (we have several hedges, since the territory is large) and also we cut back and beautifully modified various decorative bushes. This time we already had even better tools for that!!! I am writing HERE how and when we have lately cut the spruce hedge, yet now we have bought an even better tool and honestly – it is a miracle! There’s a big difference in what the means are that you can use for working. Professional working tools make life a lot easier and the result is more beautiful! Allan did the cutting and I did the carrying! It is so sweet that we work together that way! Super fun!